No Surgery

This morning Jesse and I made the trip to CHKD to find out if she would have surgery or start round 6 of chemo.

Part of me wanted her to have surgery to get that evil thing out. The other half didn’t want to put her through that trauma again. Even though Mike said he didn’t want her to have surgery, he feels the same as me.

Her doctor told me that we are starting round 6 of chemo. Surgery is out because the tumor is still wrapped around her vena cava and aorta. Trying to surgically remove that would be far dangerous than her living with it. And I do realize that even surgically removing it does not mean she is cancer free. I think that is the hardest part: Jesse will never be cancer free. She will always be in remission. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have to stop praying that she will be cancer free.

We talked about the remainder of her treatment. The doctor pointed out that she wasn’t even a third of the way through treatment, though they don’t expect the tumor to shrink any more than it already has.

In December is was 10.1 x 2.8 x 5.9. Today it is 10.4 (this is a placement error from how she was laid on the table) x 2.4 x 5.3 cm

They will work to make the cells mature so that she can have a chance at life. That is the hardest part… a chance at life. There is no definite guarantee that this won’t come back.  But being alive normally is a risk anyway… you never know what tomorrow will bring.

On the bright side her left kidney that was badly misshapen in November looks like a kidney should.

So right now she is on 72 hours of duxorubin, 2 days of 6 hours of cytoxin, and .2ml of vincristine.