So my last post was less than glowing, but I needed to get it out. Anyone with a 3 year old can tell you they are testing the boundaries… the “terrible two’s” … walk in the park. The 3’s are far more terrorizing for me anyway. And I am human. We all get frustrated with people in our lives from young to old from time to time, and feel the need to vent. No matter what I do love my girls (and husband) very much.
I also recognize that my daughter doesn’t feel 100%, but my obligation as a parent is not to raise a heathen. I don’t ever want Jesse to feel that she is entitled to anything because she had cancer. I also don’t want her sister to feel that Jesse received different treatment from me than she did. I want both of my girls to realize that no one owns them anything. And if you act less than stellar, well you don’t get rewarded.
I remember one of the biggest things the teaching nurse stressed to me when Jesse was first diagnosed was you must discipline her. I remember thinking at the time, “Duh it brings stability.” In a life that is now very unstable, this is a very important constant.
Chris is fine around myself and Mike, but I think she has figured out around grandmas she can get away with showing her tail. This was my fault I should have nipped it in the bud better last night.
I will have to say that I think Jesse is feeling much better today. She actually didn’t sit in her room and scream for me to come get her for 45 minutes when she woke up (like it has worked the other mornings). She came in the playroom on her own ( I guess when we out grow toys, we’ll have to call this the den?).
She has been smiling and laughing all morning. Only one episode of “I can’t walk,” and when I went off and left her she picked herself up and trotted after me. She’s just trying to see what she can get away with. Silly girl she should have tried playing that game with her daddy (although he wasn’t buying into it last night either).
Tomorrow we go to clinic to check her triglyceride levels. This means nothing to eat after 12am (I am going with 8pm because I want them to have as close to a 12 hour fasting time as we can pull off). The reason to check this is because they were a little high last time. This is a likely side effect of Accutane, which is the drug helping to mature her undetermined cancer cells.